Family

I realized this term does not only apply to blood, but by who sticks by you and understands your weirdness.

Beautiful new house! So exciting!

It’s been a while!

This blog is basically just for myself to look back on when I am older so a few updates since my last post:

Summer school! It’s been brutal; 4 hours a day, but well worth it! There’s is only 10 class meetings.

Spending the summer in SF- I feel like an adult now. I didn’t go home for the summer like most college kids. It was a personal choice, but I felt it was the right choice for me. I felt like I wouldn’t do anything positive in Lakeside during the summer. I stayed here, got a wonderful job which I love and wish I had more hours at, and I enrolled in summer school. I am house-sitting, so I have a free place to stay which is a huge relief off my dads shoulders I’m sure, and that makes me very happy. It has been hard to be here with out all my friends but it’s been an experience and I am learning.

SO thankful for everything my father has done for me. My dad offers me unconditional support and love. I wish we lived closer but I know this is how it is for right now. I love him so much and I am so thankful for him.

Got a house with roomies! It’s so exciting and the house is beautiful! I am excited!

Had my one-year anniversary with my amazing boyfriend! Funny story- we went camping and thought there was a bear outside the tent and went home at 1a.m. But still, it was wonderful and pretty cool to be able to share the date with him :)

Croatia

Croatia

This Week

Things to focus on:

Being positive

Keepin’ my cool

Lowering the stress level

Loving my boyfriend

TODAY

I am thankful for my job.

On a side note- I cannot stop thinking about the weekend. I feel like I’m not enjoying my time in the present because I am thinking so much about the future. Trying to stay positive and appreciative.

UGH.

There’s no better day than today for change.

The friends you make in college seem to be so unique and different than any other friends you’ve had before. I’ve honestly only made one good friend. But she became my nest friend and I would much rather have one great friend than a few shitty ones. I love her and thank her for everything she has gotten me through <3

The friends you make in college seem to be so unique and different than any other friends you’ve had before. I’ve honestly only made one good friend. But she became my nest friend and I would much rather have one great friend than a few shitty ones. I love her and thank her for everything she has gotten me through <3

WHAT’S RIGHT.

It’s so hard to know what the right thing is to do in every situation. Yeah you live and learn, but I also find myself doing things that aren’t good. But I justify it in my head with “It’s ok as long as all my school work and other responsibilities are taken care of.” Which holds to be true. But it seems as if I always feel guilty, like I can’t have one night with no worries. I just want to let loose one night and run from my mind and all my worries. It seems as if I would need great mind power to do that. But I know I have great mind power because of some of the thoughts that run through my head all day long. I am doing well in school, so why can’t I let my mind go for one night and just have fun with my friends? It seems as if I may never know the answer. I just hope I get to experience it for one night.